Time for Renewal

The unworthy self– we know that it exists within most of us– living at some level of unhealed energy. But what is it really? Is it a belief that we have done something that is so unacceptable that we are no longer worthy...and worthy of what?
Are we not worthy of the world’s love?
Are we not worthy of God’s Love?
Are we not worthy of human love?
The feelings are of being so “broken” or “damaged” that we have decided somewhere along the road that we will never measure up in the world. We decided then that we can only do the best we can. It will never be enough, but we will try.
Then, we grow as much good as we can. We plant beautiful gardens right next to trash heaps. We have beautiful rooms in our homes, yet our closets are a mass of the clutter of our unresolved past. We are trying to create something worthy, yet the unworthy still remains.
This unworthy self within each of us is the one who maintains addictions, stops forward motion, and most importantly hinders our ability to give and receive love. If anyone looked very closely at the fabric of our lives, they would eventually see the dust ladened bins of trash that can never be thrown away. And then, they would, of course, not be able to love us anymore. So, we rarely even try.
The unworthy self is born when our childlike innocence is somehow broken. Something occurs within our life when we are told that we are not enough-we are unacceptable and we believe it. This sets up experience after experience that proves we are truly unworthy and must earn the love of others. This very idea of earning love keeps love away.
Next time you look at that area of your life where you have crammed the unworthiness that you do not want the world to see...next time...face it and love it. It is the innocent child within you that was given an idea which became it’s experience. Teach it something different. Tell that innocent self that it no longer needs to hide. It is a beautiful aspect of your life that you need in order to fully become.
Unworthy Self– becomes Worthy Self
I am now able, capable, and innocent.
It’s ok for me not to know all the answers.
I am loved by God. I am loved by self.
I am ready to be loved by the world.

Body Update

So, as I practiced my new approach to youthing, I became aware of how I had carried so many people in my energy fields all these years. And while some relationships were healthy and provided an exchange of love, some had become to feel like I was the one feeding and they were the ones receiving. Parasites.

So, ever the mindful metaphysical student, I began to honor all those I carried and then I released them to God. They were all very able to take care of their own needs and really didn't require me at all. It was only through my "overly concerned" nature that I had continued to send my energy to feed people who were not even on my path.

This felt good. So my next step was to do a physical parasite cleanse. And although, I am still in the process, I am aware of greater energy every day. I now release all thoughts, people and literal creatures who feed on me and do not serve my growth. They will find their perfect place in God's kingdom- they do not need me to feed them. I am done. yea God!

Rewriting DNA

I have become aware of many shifts in my physical body as I enjoy my 55th year. Several years past menopause, I can feel as if something outside my conscious thoughts is trying to take over.
I describe it as my Grandma Body. The dna I have inherited is seeking to create the grandma shape that is imbedded in it. And, as I watch my daily thoughts of youth and acknowledge my constant activities, it is very apparent to me that what is in my cells and what is in my life are not meshing.

So, I have been forced to create a program to retrain my dna to now create a new youth body that still reflects the wisdom of my years, but also contains within it the potential of greater health, energy and joy.

My program is:
1. Meditate on all that lies before me- see new possibilities, new interesting ventures. Embrace newness.
2. Forgive all of the past. One of the major aging agents is carrying memories of sorrow or regret. I now send forgiving love, daily, to everything which is behind me.
3. Remember the hope for a better world that I used to embody when I was young. That hope for opportunities was so powerful. Remembering and bringing that feeling into the present moment tells my cells, my dna, that we have just begun. There is hope for more good in my life right now.
4. and lastly, I am honoring the choices of others. When I do this, I get to choose again, too!

So, Youth is mine through Renewal (newness and release) and Hope.
I'll let you know how it goes

The Maze

Sometimes it is difficult to navigate the maze of someone else's karma. You may think that they are experiencing something because of a mindless choice of the moment. But when all immediate remedies fail, you will begin to see the glimmer of a deeper issue- one that sources from another time and space.

Upon this recognition, it is best to bless them and allow the energy to take them to completion. Only they know what they are here to learn. And it is never the obvious logical lesson. How they respond to a challenge may, in fact, be the only thing they need to experience- simply seeing life differently.

And isn't that the same answer for all of us. If we can only see life differently, we will create life differently. So, honor the karma and the people in their walk. They will succeed. They are not avoiding their lessons, but seeking a way to heal them. Perhaps we should all pray for a simple understanding of all karma- one that is born of tolerance, patience and good for all.

Meditation

I found this meditation and wanted to share it:


I was taken to a space within the earth. I was kept moving until I reached a space so deep within Mother Earth that there was no life at all. The walls of the inner cave were very dark and cold. I was completely alone. As I settled in, my thoughts dissipated until I became part of the stillness. It was cold and dark and still. There was no outer thought to distract me, there was only stillness.

Very gently, I became aware of a presence- one that permeated the entire space. It was the consciousness of Mother Earth. It was pure peace, a pure knowing. I reached out and touched the walls. I was amazed to feel the presence of pure potential. Deep within this space, the creations of mankind seemed temporary and trivial. There was more life within the unformed energy of the silence than in much of the busy-ness that occurred on the surface. Here was a great knowing and a great contentment.

As I was moved up from the cave into the light above, I saw life expressing. Trees, flowers, grass, sun- all manner of beauty was expressing around me. This, then, is how life should express. No competition, no comparing. Each form beautiful and radiant in its own right, and each form with a beginning, a harvest, and an ending. Each form being silently supported by the mother who lies quietly beneath.

How often has the current "harvest" of my life been the most important thing in my mind? How often have I measured my life with a set of standards that I seek to achieve, only to find myself falling short. I, too, blossom, harvest and end. Yet I move effortlessly to the next task because deep within there is a space where no outer life is being expressed. There is a space within me that has complete knowing,that houses such potential that I can't even imagine. There is a space within me that silently supports every dream that I seek to grow. There is a space within me where I am One with God.

Healing

This week, I finally went through the stack of work on my desk and found a note from Spirit. It was several weeks old, and it said, write in your blog about your healing.
I looked at the note, remembered when I wrote it, remembered that I had had a beautiful healing.....but I could not remember what had happened.

Isn't that the way of the human mind? We reach to God for intervention or assistance when in some crisis of spirit, and when the healing is received, it is often forgotten. And this makes total sense, we have moved from one level of consciousness to another. But I know the message in my healing would have been a wonderful gift to the world. And since I can't remember to share it in words, let me share it in energy.

"You can heal.
You can move into a fresh new space where you are God's beloved Child.
You can begin again."

May you feel the healing love of our Father Mother God in these words you read. And may you be healed. And so it is.

Sacred Places

The other day, my son David (25) and I were discussing the "historical" significance of certain places like Jerusalem, and other sacred sites that have been fought over for years. We wondered about man's attachment to these locations.

When David went home, a series of thoughts came to him from his higher self.
"What makes a site sacred? Is it the rocks, dirt or trees or events that have happened there? Or is it the fact that people have created, over years of visitation, an energy that represents a connection to God? If it is the second, can we not create sacred spaces out of every inch of our world?

Is it God reaching down at these places, or is it that people are reaching up, that makes these spaces so special?
We fight and long for far away sacred spaces and seem to neglect the sacred space we live on every day. "

I loved the Divine perspective. Maybe we should all reach up....